Today was beautiful outside!
I went for a drive with Jeff while he did some errands. I wore my wig, but at one point I ended up having a hot flash and telling Jeff to park somewhere where I could take it off! And then after peeling off my coat I declared that if I had to wear that wig one more minute I’d be stripping down to my underwear!
I will always take at least a ball cap with me from now on. I really do not like wearing the wigs…Though they look the most ‘normal’ they are horrid to wear…especially when I have a hot flash like today...Normal is over rated anyway.
I am getting more and more comfortable going ‘au ‘Natural’ around the house for sure. And Jeff seems to like it alright too…That was my main concern.
I have been feeling pretty good…just a little tired.
I am happy that my appetite is still good…almost too good…The doc actually warned me to be careful about gaining too much weight. That is funny seeing as how I started out with everyone worrying about my being underweight.
Not long ago, I wrote a post on my blog about friendship. I have since carefully considered what I wrote about, and ended up taking it down. There were too many emotions that had not been sorted through at the time I wrote it, and some feelings got hurt…I actually made someone really upset. I do not wish to hurt anyone with this blog. Sometimes our feelings need to be kept private, and if we are concerned about a person it is best to go to that person with our concern…and if we do and they do not respond, it is never okay to publicize the matter…We always have the option to go to God with it.
I learned a few things thus far in this journey I am on…First, do not take for granted the blessings that God gives each day…And second, do not rub them into the face of one whom is having a harder time with things in their own life…always be mindful that although you are doing well, someone else may not be, so be careful how much you rejoice in the face of their trials. (Choose to help them bear their burdens before expecting them to share in your joys).
And last (most recent) Pick your battles. I haven’t the energy to navigate through all the little complexities that come with trying to muddle through what would otherwise be considered the ‘normal’ waters of relationships…This requires that I trust the Lord to work things out until I am strong enough to handle more.
Bottom line…I was wrong to complain about the relationships in my life…or lack thereof. God knows what I need and how much I can realistically handle right now. The dynamics are perfect for the needs of our little family and me…I really do NOT want the phone ringing off the hook, or people showing up at the door whenever…On the days that we do not have to travel for a treatment or another appointment…It is NICE to relax at home.
Don’t get me wrong…The few times we have been blessed with visits from family or our closest friends, they were always such a joy… probably because they are rare!
So ends another day of learning….Wonder what tomorrow has to teach?