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Sunday, April 27, 2014

An April Morning

 Psalms 50:9-11

"I shall take no young bull out of your house Nor male goats out of your folds. "For every beast of the forest is Mine, The cattle on a thousand hills. "I know every bird of the mountains, And everything that moves in the field is Mine.

Spring has finally sprung in the forest land! I have been busy taking it all in. Here is a poem that I thought you might enjoy as you view our scenic backyard that has been teaming with wildlife...These are only a few, taken early this morning in a part of our yard that I have named 'Emma's Dell' (like in the poem) this is where we buried our little Emma girl.
Can you see me?
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 'It Was An April Morning Fresh and Clear: By William Wordsworth

It was an April morning: fresh and clear
The Rivulet, delighting in its strength,
Ran with a young man's speed; and yet the voice
Of waters which the winter had supplied
Was softened down into a vernal tone. 
The spirit of enjoyment and desire,
And hopes and wishes, from all living things
Went circling, like a multitude of sounds.
The budding groves seemed eager to urge on
The steps of June; as if their various hues 
Were only hindrances that stood between
Them and their object: but, meanwhile, prevailed
Such an entire contentment in the air
That every naked ash, and tardy tree
Yet leafless, showed as if the countenance 
With which it looked on this delightful day
Were native to the summer.—Up the brook
I roamed in the confusion of my heart,
Alive to all things and forgetting all.
At length I to a sudden turning came 
In this continuous glen, where down a rock
The Stream, so ardent in its course before,
Sent forth such sallies of glad sound, that all
Which I till then had heard, appeared the voice
Of common pleasure: beast and bird, the lamb, 
The shepherd's dog, the linnet and the thrush
Vied with this waterfall, and made a song,
Which, while I listened, seemed like the wild growth
Or like some natural produce of the air,
That could not cease to be. Green leaves were here; 
But 'twas the foliage of the rocks—the birch,
The yew, the holly, and the bright green thorn,
With hanging islands of resplendent furze:
And, on a summit, distant a short space,
By any who should look beyond the dell, 
A single mountain-cottage might be seen.
I gazed and gazed, and to myself I said,
"Our thoughts at least are ours; and this wild nook,
My Emma, I will dedicate to thee."
—Soon did the spot become my other home, 
My dwelling, and my out-of-doors abode.
And, of the Shepherds who have seen me there,
To whom I sometimes in our idle talk
Have told this fancy, two or three, perhaps,
Years after we are gone and in our graves, 
When they have cause to speak of this wild place,
May call it by the name of Emma's Dell.

~Blessings & Love~
and remember, we are...


Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Simple and complicated things UPDATE

*UPDATE Liver is doing better. I am pretty anemic, so I'm kinda wore down today...Still doing good though, Thanks for all the prayers!
I'll be back some time next week.

Keeping my mind on the simple joys of life, and on the grace God gives me for each day is keeping me sane.
Things have been up and down around here lately.
First of all, the sonographer who checked my heart said it still looks "pretty", and that the area (left chamber) is what they are watching...and the valve and everything is working well.
She said she would read it in more detail and send the report to my doctor. (Thanks for praying)
The blood test for liver function was also done, and we will know this Friday when I go for chemo #5.
We were unable to visit the Cross In the Woods because I had a bad cold that only lasted for three days because I decided to give it to Jeff...who still has it. This was the shortest cold I ever had, so I am confident that my immune system is working well!

On the same day last week, I was informed that someone hacked into my Google account, and then I discovered that someone had trespassed onto our property, and the place I go in the woods had a bunch of litter thrown all around...I ended up cleaning it up filling two (grocery sized)  bags!

Both issues are now resolved (hopefully). I changed my Google password, and Jeff caught two kids playing in the spot where I found the trash...He nicely told them they didn't belong there...they left without argument...Hopefully they will not try again since (a): it is not a safe place for small kids without supervision to play and (b): they don't seem to have very good manners!

We also had quite a lot of trouble with both our phone and internet accounts...As far as the phone, it has been nearly impossible to use for the past few months. We have been trying to get out of paying an early termination fee with them by stating the fact that the service is almost useless and we are experiencing a major health issue which requires a dependable phone. At first we were told that it was not an acceptable reason to terminate early...but the next day they left a message that they would not charge us if we returned the equipment and to call them to request a return kit...when I called I had to speak with three different people before they would finally honor their promise...after I had to repeat the whole thing over and over each time! I was so stressed out by the end of it I was nearly in tears! Such a simple thing became quite complicated.
But, after May 5th we will have a better phone connection finally after more than a year!
As far as the internet (its the same company but a different account)...that contract will be up in four months. This is the first time this week I've had a good enough signal to be able to update this blog from home!
We also took quite a financial hit...something came up that ended up depleting our savings account...but hopefully that issue will be resolved quickly too.
But, as always...we have lived our lives by what the following quote says:

Delight in Simple Things

~Learn to like what doesn’t cost too much.
~Learn to like reading, conversation, music.
~Learn to like plain food, plain service, plain cooking.
~Learn to like fields, trees, brooks, hiking, rowing, climbing hills.
~Learn to like people, even though some of them may be different from you.
~Learn to like to work and enjoy the satisfaction of doing your job as well as it can be done.
~Learn to like the songs of birds, the companionship of dogs.
~Learn to like gardening, puttering around the house, and fixing things.
~Learn to like the sunrise and sunset, the beating of rain on the roof and windows, and the gentle fall of snow on a winter day.
~Learn to keep your wants simple, and refuse to be controlled by the likes and dislikes of others.
–L. B. Bennion

And of course this scripture...

Matthew 6:25-34

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I am feeling pretty good much of the time. Although I am experiencing more nausea and continue to have neuropathy in my fingers. The strangest symptom so far is how my upper eyelids are almost constantly twitching! It's pretty annoying!
Oh, and the chemo has finally put me into instant menopause, so I am having hot flashes and night sweats every day and night. This is the worst of all symptoms! I will ask my nurse on Friday if I can take an herbal remedy for this while I am getting chemo. I only have two more to go!
The weather here has been is the case in many places, I know.
We had a lot of rain over the we would not have been able to go anywhere anyway.
The rain flooded out many roads in the area. (Thank the Lord we live on a big hill!)
The temperature went from the 50's (F) down into the twenties as of yesterday, and we got a couple inches of snow last night!
I am sitting here under the blanket typing this...but the sun is shining once again!
here is what it looked like two days ago:

Oh...and I almost forgot to mention that I got robbed!

Yep, that's my coffee cup on the ground...Those two stole it while I was taking some shots!

Well, that is all for now...Life may have its ups and downs, but God is always in control and working everything out for our good.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose... Roman 8:28



and remember, we are...


Friday, April 11, 2014

Echo time

Well, it's been three months, so it is time to have another echocardiogram.
Since the targeted therapy (not chemo) drug Herceptin is considered a cardiotoxin, it could damage my heart so I must have it checked every three months for the duration of a year of therapy with this drug.
Please pray that my heart is as "pretty" as the technologist said it was three months ago....if not, then they will have to stop giving it to me, and the chance of the cancer returning will greatly increase! So it is very important that we continue this therapy, and that my heart stays healthy.
I will end this post here, since I must be on my way...But I will be sure to return with an update ASAP.
As usual, thank you for your continued prayers, and know that I am praying for you all as well, my friends.
~Blessings & Love~
and remember, we are...


Friday, April 4, 2014

Our Granddaughters

Our three little granddaughters made the paper!

Don't you just love how these kids are completely lost in that ice cream.. Remember those days?
We usually don't see kids eating ice cream in their winter coats and boots!

Well, this grandma will be stocking up on plenty of ice cream for the next visit, that's for sure!

Choosing Life!

I thought it was time to dust off the old blog! I gave 'Facebook' a good try there for awhile, but I'm afraid I jus...