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Thursday, August 18, 2011

Sparrow # NineMillionNineHundredNinetyNineThousand

Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God Luke 12:6-7
Two days ago my neighbor's cat had her eye on a little sparrow in my front yard...Thankfully so did I. I promptly opened up the window and said: "Don't you even think of touching my bird!" After turning to give me an incredulous glare, the cat ran off.  Now I know that that wild creature does not belong to me,  it belongs to God, everything does.
How awesome to know that out of all His creation, He calls us His sons and daughters, and He watches over us.  Just as I was watching the cat watching the bird, the Lord sees our enemy watchng and waiting for an opportunity to attack us. What I noticed was how the bird didn't even seem to see the cat at all, even though it was only a few feet away; I wonder how close our enemy actually gets sometimes before God chases him away? It's probably best that we can't see the spiritual warfare going on around us!

Psalm 24:1-2
 The earth is the LORD’s, and everything in it,
the world, and all who live in it;
for he founded it on the seas
and established it on the waters.

Matthew 6.28-29 Lilies Field Toil Spin Solomon Glory
  * click on image to get free wallpaper*
Luke 12:22-31
Do Not Worry
22 Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23 For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life[b]? 26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?
27 “Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! 29 And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 30 For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31 But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.


Thursday, August 11, 2011

A Walk Through The Forest ( in stages )

I awoke in a fog this morning.

I prayed for  some hope and clarity.
God's Word Shone through!
I could see where He was leading me.
As I entered within I could see...
His Glory Shine all around me!

*Only the photos of the little chapel in the woods were taken by me

~The following compilation of scriptures is taken from this website:

Proverbs 12:25

25 Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs it down,

But a good word makes it glad.

Deuteronomy 31:8 – The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.

Deuteronomy 33:27 – The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.

2 Samuel 22:17-22 – He sent from above, he took me; he drew me out of many waters; (18) He delivered me from my strong enemy, and from them that hated me: for they were too strong for me. (19) They prevented me in the day of my calamity: but the Lord was my stay. (20) He brought me forth also into a large place: he delivered me, because he delighted in me. (21) The Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness: according to the cleanness of my hands hath he recompensed me. (22) For I have kept the ways of the Lord, and have not wickedly departed from my God.

2 Samuel 22:29 – You are my lamp O Lord; the Lord turns my darkness into light.

Ecclesiastes 9:4 – Anyone who is among the living has hope.

Psalms 9:9 – The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.

Psalm 27:14 - Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.

Psalm 31:22,24 – You heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help… Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord.

Psalm 34:18, 19 – The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (19) A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all.

Psalm 37:23-24 – If the Lord delights in a man’s way, he makes his steps firm; though he stumbles, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand.

Psalm 43:5 – Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God.

Psalm 55:22 – Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.

Psalm 62:5 – Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him.

Psalm 126:5 – Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.

Anyone who is among the living has hope. Ecclesiastes 9:4

Surely there is a future, And your hope will not be cut off. Proverbs 23:18

No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame. (Psalm 25:3)

You are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. (Psalm 25:5)

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD, even as we put our hope in you. (Psalm 33:22)

Those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land. (Psalm 37:9)

Why are you downcast, o my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. (Psalm 42:5)

In your name I will hope, for your name is good. (Psalm 52:9)

Find rest, o my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. (Psalm 62:5)

You answer us with awesome deeds of righteousness, O God our Savior, the hope of all the ends of the earth and of the farthest seas. (Psalm 65:5)

For you have been my hope, O Sovereign LORD, my confidence since my youth. (Psalm 71:5)

But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more. (Psalm 71:14)

I have put my hope in your word. (Psalm 119:74)

Sustain me according to your promise, and I will live; do not let my hopes be dashed. (Psalm 119:116)

For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope. (Romans 15:4)

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15:13)

Therefore, since we have such a hope, we are very bold. (2 Corinthians 3:12)

I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. (Ephesians 1:18-19)

There is one body and one Spirit – just as you were called to one hope when you were called– one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. (Ephesians 4:4-6)

May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word. (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ form the dead. (1 Peter 1:3)

Psalm 143:7-8 – Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I’ll lift up my soul.

Psalm 147:3 – He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Psalm 145:14 – The LORD upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.

Proverbs 12:25 – Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs it down (depression), but a good word cheers it up.

Isaiah 26:3-4, Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because he trusts in Thee. Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength. (Perfect means complete. If I keep my part of the promise by staying steadfastly focused on the Lord Jesus Christ, He will keep His promise to give me His perfect peace. See also Philippians 4:6-7 below)

Isaiah 35:10 – And the ransomed of the Lord will return. They will enter Zion with singing; everlasting joy will crown their heads. Gladness and joy will overtake them, and sorrow and sighing will flee away

Isaiah 40:31, But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Isaiah 53:4 – Surely he took up our sicknesses and carried our sorrows.

Mark 9:23 – Everything is possible for him who believes.

Romans 4:18-22 – Who against hope believed in hope, that he might become the father of many nations, according to that which was spoken, so shall they seed be. (19) And being not weak in faith, he considered not his own body now dead, when he was about an hundred years old, neither yet the deadness of Sarah’s womb: (20) He staggered not at the promise of God through unbelief; but was strong in faith, giving glory to God. (21) And being fully persuaded that, what he had promised, he was able to perform. (22) And therefore it was imputed to him for righteousness.

Romans 15:13 – May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

II Corinthians 7:6-7 – Nevertheless God, that comforts, those that are depressed, comforted us by the coming of Titus; (7) And not by his coming only, but by the consolation wherewith he was comforted in you, when he told us your earnest desire, your mourning, your fervent mind toward me; so that I rejoiced the more.

Philippians 4:6-7 – Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

James 4:8 – Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

James 4:10 – Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

2 Peter 2:9 – The Lord knows how to rescue godly men from trials.

1 Peter 4:12 – Dear Friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you.

1 Peter 4:13 – But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed

1 Peter 5:7 – Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

*By the way I am NOT depressed, but have learned to use the Word of God and positive thinking, nutrition, and exercise to counteract the onset of depression when the first signs appear. I believe the LORD is leading me to share what I have learned with others who struggle with depression and anxiety.

Christians are not immune to depression, in fact there is quite an epidemic amongst Christians today:

And now to close with the words to one of my favorite songs by the gospelmen quartet:

Yes, oh yes, I'm a child of the King

His royal blood now flows thru my veins

And I, who was wretched and poor now can sing


I'm a child of the KING!

Thursday, August 4, 2011



Those were the first words out of my mouth when the nurse called today...
I do NOT have cancer!

I wanted to thank everybody who prayed for me, your prayers helped me get through this valley. I debated whether or not to even post about any of it here but I am glad that I did because now I can share this triumph with you!

Our Lord led me directly to a post on this blog today and I couldn't believe it's relevence !

Please take a moment to visit, as it is sure to bless you too!

Remembering His Promise

Last night I had a strange dream. In my dream there was a world wide news flash that Jesus was dead. This news was being broadcasted throughout the world and my husband and I, in a panic reacted by fleeing, we somehow knew that we must evacuate our home and fast! I remember in the dream how terrified we were and I told him “now we have nothing to protect us from Satan, now that Jesus isn’t here anymore! So we collected what we thought was necessary for survival and packed up our four wheel drive. I will never forget the emotions that this dream evoked in me. Thank God it was only a dream thank God Jesus rose from the dead and His Holy Spirit will never leave us! But as the hours passed this morning, I couldn’t get this dream out of my head, was there a message in it? I believe so. A while ago the Lord showed me that I needed to re-read the gospels & I even posted about it on here. So I read through some of the gospels again and tried to concentrate specifically on the disciples’ reactions immediately after the death of Jesus.* (remember this was a time before the promise of the resurrection was realized)

 Even after eyewitness reports of an empty tomb and angelic encounters, and even standing in the presence of the resurrected Lord, there was doubt.

The disciples seemed to have forgotten that Jesus promised He would rise on the third day, even though the chief priests remembered him saying so, and even bribed the watchmen [who witnessed the angel’s proclamation to the women at the tomb] to lie about what they saw. (Mat.28:11-15) In that same chapter of Mathew we are told that the eleven went to meet with the Lord and when they saw Him, they worshipped Him; but some doubted. Is it no wonder then that Jesus is just going to call us up to meet Him in the air with the sound of the angel’s trumpet, instead of asking us to meet him somewhere again, why it would take another millenium to convince everyone that it is really Him speaking to us! (1Thes.4:17)

Remember Thomas who demanded proof before he would believe the testimonies of the others? (John 20:24-29)

So what I’m seeing clearly here is a parallel in the way some of us Christians are reacting to the promise Jesus gave us about his return. Just like the disciples so long ago, we are told of His eminent return and we either ignore it’s possibility of occuring any time too soon, or we forget everything He said about the last days (birth pangs). As we witness day after day the prophesies unfolding right under our noses, we still doubt that these world wide events have anything to do with the prophetic messages from the Bible, and that all is well enough, and nothing is new.  Some of us even turn off the news and try not to think about these things at all. And like the disciples, we are depressed and afraid, forgetting His promise to come back for us so that we will be with Him forever. So what are we supposed to be doing?

 23Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for he is faithful that promised;)

24And let us consider one another to provoke unto love and to good works:

25Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching.  (Heb 10:23-25)

Jesus tells us in the gospels to keep watch and pray...and to not be decieved.. (Mathew 24 & 25, Mark 13; Luke 21) This exhortation is primarily for the [tribulation] believers who are awaiting His second coming; many (myself included) believe the church will be raptured by this time. (Although we are not to go looking for the Lord if someone tells us He's here or there, as we will hear the trumpet sound and be with him instantly.)The trumpet call is only heard by believers, whereas Christ’s second coming will be witnessed by all.

(The following notes (NOT images) were taken from:

The Rapture:

 Immediately proceeding the seven year period of the Tribulation, Jesus Christ will return for all those who have placed their faith in Him.

They will be transformed in an instant, and appear before the throne of God in heaven. From that day forward, these people (those who maintained a personal relationship with Jesus Christ while living on the earth) will live in the eternal presence of the Prince of Peace, the Creator of the Universe.

This is the blessed hope of all Christians, that Christ will return for them, and Jesus confirms this hope by making a promise to all who trust Him:

"Don't be troubled. You trust God, now trust in me. There are many rooms in my Father's home, and I am going to prepare a place for you. If this were not so, I would tell you plainly. When everything is ready, I will come and get you, so that you will always be with me where I am." John 14:1-3 (NLT)

In addition to the promises of Jesus, several New Testament passages reference this event. The Apostle Paul mentions it in his first letter to the Corinthians:

"But let me tell you a wonderful secret God has revealed to us. Not all of us will die, but we will all be transformed. It will happen in a moment, in the blinking of an eye, when the last trumpet is blown. For when the trumpet sounds, the Christians who have died will be raised with transformed bodies. And then we who are living will be transformed so that we will never die. For our perishable earthly bodies must be transformed into heavenly bodies that will never die." 1 Corinthians 15:51-53 (NLT)

"I can tell you this directly from the Lord: We who are still living when the Lord returns will not rise to meet him ahead of those who are in their graves. For the Lord himself will come down from heaven with a commanding shout, with the call of the archangel, and with the trumpet call of God. First, all the Christians who have died will rise from their graves. Then, together with them, we who are still alive and remain on the earth will be caught up in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air and remain with him forever. So comfort and encourage each other with these words." 1 Thessalonians 4:15-18 (NLT)

Jesus described the rapture when he said:

"However, no one knows the day or the hour when these things will happen, not even the angels in heaven or the Son himself. Only the Father knows. When the Son of Man returns, it will be like it was in Noah's day. In those days before the Flood, the people were enjoying banquets and parties and weddings right up to the time Noah entered his boat. People didn't realize what was going to happen until the Flood came and swept them all away. That is the way it will be when the Son of Man comes."

"Two men will be working together in the field; one will be taken, the other left. Two women will be grinding flour at the mill; one will be taken, the other left. So be prepared, because you don't know what day your Lord is coming. Know this: a homeowner who knew exactly when a burglar was coming would stay alert and not permit the house to be broken into. You also must be ready all the time. For the Son of Man will come when least expected." Matthew 24:36-44 (NLT)


This will not be an allegorical or spiritual return of mere symbolic significance. It will be a literal return to earth to judge those nations who have aligned against Him. The glorious appearing is characterized by its visibility. Every eye on earth will witness the return of Jesus Christ:

"Then everyone will see the Son of Man arrive on the clouds with great power and glory. And he will send forth his angels to gather together his chosen ones from all over the world - from the farthest ends of the earth and heaven." Mark 13:26-27 (NLT)

The glorious appearing will be seen by all, just as lightning covers the sky:

"For as the lightning lights up the entire sky, so it will be when the Son of Man comes." Matthew 24:27 (NLT)

Those who anticipate the rapture will react to the Lord's return with great celebration. But the glorious appearing will be accompanied by great mourning, for the majority of those who are left on earth at this time will be those who rejected Christ:

"And then at last, the sign of the coming of the Son of Man will appear in the heavens, and there will be deep mourning among all the nations of the earth. And they will see the Son of Man arrive on the clouds of heaven with power and great glory. And he will send forth his angels with the sound of a mighty trumpet blast, and they will gather together his chosen ones from the farthest ends of the earth and heaven." Matthew 24:30-31 (NLT)

The Book of Revelation reiterates the sorrow of those who have rejected Him:

"Look! He comes with the clouds of heaven. And everyone will see him - even those who pierced him. And all the nations of the earth will weep because of him. Yes! Amen! 'I am the Alpha and the Omega - the beginning and the end,' says the Lord God. 'I am the one who is, who always was, and who is still to come, the Almighty One.'" Revelation 1:7-8 (NLT)

Again I have to say "THANK GOD" it was only a dream. But for a while I could really relate to how empty and terrifying it felt to lose hope, to feel like my LORD was no longer here! I hope that somebody reading this will find the peace and hope that only Jesus can give you. If you have been looking for a way to end all the fear and worry and lonliness you have been feeling (especially lately) please take a moment to read the invitation at the bottom of this blog. I didn't write that from my own mind, (Jesus gave those scriptures to us long ago) and they are copied here from the Holy Bible just for you to read today dear one.

Peace In Jesus & remember, we are...
Never Forsaken

Tuesday, August 2, 2011


Everybody is waiting for something...
We believers are waiting for our Lord to return. Unbelievers are waiting for the arrival of, well, all
sorts of things: comets,aliens,massive earthquakes ...My husband and I were in a chinese restaurant last night waiting for our order; while there we ran into our daughter's father in law.
We struck up a conversation about a recent scare his family faced regarding his employment with the postal service. They were waiting with baited breath for a phone call that would tell them whether or not his management job would be cut. As christians they knew to pray through this tense situation and while they were waiting they hung onto the promises of Psalm 91; specifically, these passages:
  5Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night;
  nor for the arrow that flieth by day; 
 6Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness;
  nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday. 
  7A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand;
  but it shall not come nigh thee.

Americans are waiting on a decision from our government to reach an agreement on a plan to adopt a budget to fix our national debt and spending crisis.
Many of us are waiting for the war to end and our soldiers to return home,
Some of us are waiting on phone calls from employers telling us we have an interview, or from a
doctors office with news that could change our future. (or our concept of it)
Regardless of what it is that keeps us waiting, it is imperative to remember that although we don't know what the future holds for us specifically, God does.

If we believe that Jesus is who he says he is:
2Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.
3For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds. (Hebrews 12:2-3)
He is the Good Shepherd: (John 10:1-21, Psalm 23)
20Now the God of peace, that brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great shepherd of the sheep, through the blood of the everlasting covenant,
21Make you perfect in every good work to do his will, working in you that which is wellpleasing in his sight, through Jesus Christ; to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen. (Hebrews 13: 20-21)

We can trust in His unwaivering character:
Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever. (Hebrews 13:8),
~Revelation 1:8 I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, the Almighty.

God is always with us, and knows everything about us:
(Psalm 139:1-18)
1O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.
2Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.
3Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.
4For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.
5Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.
7Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?
8If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
9If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;
10Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.
11If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.
12Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.
13For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.
14I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
15My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.
17How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!
18If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.

He is there with us and will help us with our troubles:

Isaiah 41:13

~For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.~

He will NEVER leave us :

Mathew 28:20

20Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. AMEN.

But let us not despair while we wait. And no matter the outcome, may we have the attitude of Habakuk and pray as such:

 Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labour of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls:
 Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation.
 The LORD God is my strength, and he will make my feet like hinds' feet, and He will make me to walk upon mine high places.  (Habikuk 3:17-19)

For we know that God is in Control, and all things work for the good:

Romans 8:28

28And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.


Choosing Life!

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