This was me last Friday getting my third treatment.
Were they ever busy in there...We were there for eight hours!
Poor Pam, my nurse...she was running non-stop. It looked like the doc had at least three new patients that day. She said the problem was there were not enough chairs...I told her that the problem seemed to be that there were too many people with cancer.
Since the infusion rooms are private, the only chance I get to visit with people (aside from the staff), is in the waiting room. I always pay attention for the Lord to point me to someone that maybe just needs a listening ear, or a hug. That day I had the honor of meeting a young woman whom I had heard about back when I had my surgery last December. She is a nurse at the hospital there who found breast cancer while she was pregnant with her third child. What a sweet girl...I am glad to have met her and at the moment she needed someone to mother her a bit. She was alone and scared, so we talked about her fears...Cancer is very scary, and after chemo is finished, it can be even scarier since you worry that it may come back. During treatment you actually feel a sense of security since the likelihood of a new growth is almost nil.
She showed me pictures of her three little ones...so cute! And the baby boy with the full head of hair made us laugh at the irony of it.
Looking back through this whole thing so far has me seeing everything in a different light today. It is easy to say sometimes that the enemy of our souls is achieving his plan to steal, kill, and destroy...
“the thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; ...
But, when you step back a bit and take a broader look, you can see that he only has an arena in which to showcase his nasty stuff...And when he is finished with his act...The real show begins.
For every blow he strikes, The Lord has a counter strike...and more might, and he has the ability to bind the enemy.
...I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” John 10:10
The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the devil's work. 1John 3:11
I see a roaring lion in center ring terrifying the children of God,
|Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. |
circling them and pawing at the ground while he shows his teeth. He may get in a scratch or two...maybe even pin one of us down, but when the spotlight shifts and spans outward illuminating the darkness outside the arena...I see the Lion of Judah sitting regally, eyes fixed upon the enemy, his muscles flexed, and ready to deliver a powerful strike that will send the enemy reeling. His power has no match, and his heart is set upon his children.
Sometimes we get roughed up during the course of this battle... we may get stepped on or kicked a bit as we are caught in the middle...But we know instinctively that we are safe while in His presence, no matter the circumstances surrounding us. He fights for us, not against us.
So when I look into the eyes of a young mother who is surviving a terrible disease, I do not see the disease, but the miracle of life in the faces of her children, and a heart of love that comes straight from our Creator to conquer and destroy the threat to His children...to our children.
She and I are in agreement, cancer is not a death sentence...It's a second chance at life!
Love and life prevails.
Back when I was in the hospital and talking with the Chaplin, I remember saying that God never intended for this disease to invade my body...it was never his plan. But the Chaplin reminded me that although it was not God's plan, it became one of the consequences of man choosing sin over obedience way back at the beginning, in the garden...This world is sick because of us...But Jesus gave us the ability to overcome the world and all its sickness if we have faith in the One who conquered death and cleanses us of our sins.
My checkup went well, the doc is keeping his eye on the red blood cells and platelets, as these also continue to fall (which is expected). He said that I should be a cheerleader for the other patients as I am doing so well...It is because people are praying.
Even on the rough days...it is good because Jesus carries me, and gives me even more grace.
~Blessings & Love~
and remember, we are...