*Note: I lost my earlier post! I am sitting here annoyed and disgusted, because when I clicked on one of the images from the website I always use for free Christian images, it showed some ad for some scantily-clad women in my area! So not only did one of the images ( a free wallpaper) take away my entire post when I removed the image, but I was confronted with worldly smut!
I guess I just need to use my own stuff, as unprofessional as my photos are, I will just try to dress them up a bit for you I guess. Adding scripture to them always makes them better.
So here is my second attempt at this blog post today: Without all the pretty pictures...
Not too long ago I prayed for the Lord to deliver me from the severe anxiety with panic attacks. In recent years I have attended a few different churches, and before long, when my symptoms became very severe, I would just quit going before anyone really got a chance to know me, so I was never missed.
Well, after I prayed for deliverance I decided I needed to set a goal for myself. I knew that if I were able to attend the church where my family and I were members for several years, it would not be possible for me to just sneak in there and then leave without detection. I guess you could say that what I needed to accomplish this task, was some accountability!
So two weeks ago I started attending the church again for the first time in over ten years. It was not easy, but with the Lord's help, I have been able to get through the panic which assaults me every time I leave the house.
My biggest test came today. I was invited to attend the ladies' Bible study, the study that I used to be a part of for many years, which I even filled in for the teacher once in awhile.
So, last night I was feeling quite anxious about this. I stayed up late reading the Bible for wisdom and guidance to give me some strength. I knew I would try to talk myself out of attending the Bible study.
The Lord led me to read 1 Theselonians 5: 12-13 and 16-18.
I wrote my notes and marked the passages in my Bible and went to bed.
Early this morning I awoke to a storm. I went back to sleep with the idea that I was not going anywhere today. I awoke later and even though the storms had abated, I could not seem to rouse myself enough to get motivated. I got dressed and hastly tied my hair into a sloppy ponytail, and drank two strong cups of coffee. Even at 9 O'clock, my brain just didn't want to wake up.
Too lazy to retrieve my Bible from the kitchen table, I turned my attention onto the notebook lying on the end table next to me, and I read what I had written in there last night before bed:
12 And we beseech you, brethren, to know them which labour among you, and are over you in the Lord, and admonish you;
13 And to esteem them very highly in love for their work's sake. And be at peace among yourselves.
I had missed the Bible study last week, so I had promised Flo, the teacher, that I would be there this week. I knew that out of respect for Flo, (who is a wonderful elderly lady who has been with the church since it's beginning) I had an obligation to be there if at all possible. So I went.
Of course once I was seated, Flo handed me the study notes from the previous weeks, and wouldn't you know it...1 Thes. 5:17 and 18 was the focus of the study...Praying without ceasing, and being in the will of God!
16 Rejoice evermore.
17 Pray without ceasing.
18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.
I even had a question answered that I had been wrestling with for three months now! Despite all my own reading and studying, God did not reveal the answer until I stepped out in faith and obedience!
I was amazed at how clear and simple the answer was too. It was about forgiveness, which I found out is to be the subject of the next study.
I was a bit worried about telling the ladies (many whom I've known for years), about the anxiety keeping me housebound for over a year now, but when I told them, they were only upset that I had not reached out to them so they could have prayed for me...I told them that I had been blessed with the opportunity to meet many loving Christians from all over the world, so God did not leave me disconnected from sisters and brothers in Christ. I told them I was sitting there now because of the prayers of my blogging friends!
I thank God for you all, and I said a special prayer for blessings on each one of you this morning.
The Lord bless you and keep you;
The Lord make His face shine upon you,
And be gracious to you;
The Lord lift up His countenance upon you,
And give you peace.