2023 FIRST POST AND UPDATE

 

 

 It's 2023. I am Fifty Seven years old.

It feels so strange being this age. I am no longer young, yet I am not yet considered very old, or elderly..but I know that is coming up very fast for me, the years are flying by, and I’ve not been having a whole lot of fun! So much for that old saying  “time flies when you’re having fun “

There's a whole lot of strangeness in this world and I do not know who, if anyone to trust these days. Of course we can only trust Our Lord just as always. This is my comfort. 

I admit I got caught up in all the news and all the stories of Biblical prophecy unfolding very quickly at this time..and I have, once again decided to tune it all out! I simply cannot function with all of it on my mind day and night. I will put these worries and stress into God's hands, where it belongs. I have faith and that is enough.

It's a wet but snowy day outside. I fed Oliver and gave the two hens some warmed peas. We have plenty of fresh water and food in the house. It is warm in here and we are both content in life even though we are not in the best health. 

Our home is paid off and Jeff will retire in less than two years. We have everything we need. God is good and He takes care of us very well. What happens in the world does not happen unless he allows it and it is according to his perfect plan, so fretting about these things is a useless pastime.

 

HERE IS A SUMMARY OF THE LAST FEW MONTHS:

July 19 

 I'm in my fifties and diagnosed with stage four cancer (in remission). I lost a couple good (I thought) friends when I got diagnosed. We really did not expect me to live long, but here I am nearly four years since my second diagnosis with it, and nine years since the beginning. One of the friends came back recently admitting she was scared. I am struggling with her betrayal though to be honest. We were friends since high school. The other friend who lives in the neighborhood remains absent from my life after more than two decades together. {Her choice, not mine.} My very best friend died a year ago May, and I am still hurting from it even though I know I will see her again someday in heaven. I have my husband, my daughter(s) and my dog..without them I would not be here.

 I am slowly getting back into art, mostly sketching in order to keep it simple. For the past five or so years, I have fallen into love with horses! I simply cannot get enough of them, I draw them, play two horse games online, I collect little statues and even have a life-sized stuffed pony that my husband gave me! I am struggling with my faith. Its been hard to talk honestly with God. 

September 22, 2022

 I made fourteen videos for my YouTube channel last month! I planned to continue paying for the two subscriptions that help me make the videos, but after doing so many I realized that there's more than enough content on my channel for anyone to watch for a long, long time now. I have done everything from a tribute to Arthur Morgan (RDR2) to Arthur and Mary, Abigail and John, John and Arthur..to short funny videos, music videos, personal videos etc...) There is literally NOTHING left to make a video about at this time, so I cancelled my subscription to Epidemic sound (Music source)..and Now I am ready to cancel my editor subscription as well. This saves me paying $25 a month! (for something I normally do not use every month). I feel very strongly that it is time to do something else with my time, energy and (hopefully) God-given talents..to pursue my Lord and study the Word of God on a deeper level. I will continue to play RDO with Sam..although the game remains quite broken still..and of course, for relaxation I will play SSO for the horses I have collected and enjoyment in a non-threatening/non-stressful environment. 

 

9/25/22

My hip pain continues. It is the only intolerable pain I have. I need to make sure I have the necessary prescription to keep it under control. I cannot even think or sleep when its at its worst!

January 11, 2023

*NOTE* I just learned that this hip pain is not arthritis or joint pain but a tightened muscle and/or tendon. I learned some stretching exercises {online} to help. This means I can stop taking the medication for pain and manage it better now!

Also...

I've been studying the Bible and listening to many pastors and teachers online. I have been so depressed lately, still missing Deb terribly! I decided this week, after gaining a few unhealthy pounds recently, and having less and less energy I need to take responsibility for my own health, and do something about it! I walked the treadmill for almost 25 minutes this morning, ate steamed spinach with apple cider vinegar and a hard boiled egg in the vinegar as well with turmeric and ate a banana. I also had some white tea and honey as well as my coffee. Yesterday I sat outside with the hens for around a half hour in the fresh/cold air. I will try not to get discouraged and keep on with this plan. Go outside everyday regardless the weather, and eat only real and healthy foods and move my body daily. I am also redirecting my passion for writing back to the Lord. My hope is also to start sketching again soon. My mind needs to be more clear in order to be able to do that though. 

ANOTHER UPDATE: 2/9/2023

 

 Time keeps slipping by. I wonder about continuing to post on this blog? I play Star Stable Online every day and might blog about that more often on-THE DOMINO EFFECT. {My younger grandchildren may enjoy reading that blog}. Because today is a wet, chilly day, I woke up in a lot of pain from arthritis. Jeff works a lot of hours with his own arthritis pain, so I can't complain. Thanks to the blessing of his job, I can chose to take it easy when I don't feel so great. I did take care of the two hens. Laydee, our main laying hen has decided to have a late winter molt and is not laying eggs lately. I've been giving her a lot of extra protein and treats to help her along. I even placed a straw bale with a hanging treat feeder to help her stay warm and active. The coop and run are warm and dry. I miss having fresh eggs.