The Lord showed me something yesterday as I was talking with a friend.
He revealed to me how uncomfortable it can be when he decides to change us in order to be used according to his purposes..He showed me a picture (in my mind) of a pretty little teacup sitting upon a shelf, rarely used..too delicate to take down and handle every day and then need to be washed clean afterwards. Then he told me that I am that little teacup..or at least, I was.
“Everyone who is called by My name, whom I have created for My glory; I have formed him, yes, I have made him . " Isaiah 43:7
He has been very busy with me, busy re-molding me into something different from what I used to be. Just like a little teacup which can only hold a very small amount of liquid, I was being filled as full as possible with the Holy Spirit and pouring out from the Word..but now the Lord has been changing me day by day, making me able to hold more of Him so that I can pour out more of his life-giving Word to more and more thirsty people.
This transition in my walk with the Lord has come with a price..with much pain and more than a little bit of complaint and questioning of "Why, Lord? I was perfectly content with who I was, what you made me for..with being a wife and mom, a homemaker, a friend to the friends that I had at that time. Why can't I just stay as I am? "
Some things needed to be emptied out first.
And, just like Isaiah, we are called to be purged clean in order to be ready to serve God.
“Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord almighty.” The Bible continues to say in Isaiah 6 : 6,7 *Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. With it he touched my mouth and said, “See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for.”*
*(As the new testament church, we are made clean through the blood of Jesus)*
The Lord allowed some things to happen in my life, some things that literally broke me to pieces..because, you see, that is what must happen first before He makes the new mold.
Make me to hear joy and gladness; the bones thou hast broken may rejoice. Psalm 51:8
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise. For You do not delight in sacrifice, otherwise I would give it; You are not pleased with burnt offering. Psalm 51:16-17
My health took a severe turn for the worst..I was forced to look death in the face and then make peace with the thought of dying.
Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: John 11:25
For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better.
I lost some friends along that journey, but gained some new ones too.
I suffered a lot, and realized my physical limits were harder to cope with than I ever imagined.
I had to learn how to forgive..and forget too! I learned that this can only be done through giving grace the way The Lord gives more than we could ever deserve! By looking at myself realistically seeing the ugliest parts of my soul, and how only God can make me clean again! Then coming to the truth of who I am, who I think I am..certainly not someone who is better than anyone else, even those who have hurt me or let me down in this life!
Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you. Ephesians 4:32
Certainly The Lord is not finished with me yet..I am still getting worked on..and, who knows what changes are being made. But I am learning to:
Trust in the with all your heart
Ok, so not every lesson is all about me, lol..Where are you in your walk with the Lord?
~Blessings & Love~
and remember, we are...